Proverbs 11:2 – Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.
So my husband and I have been going to a weekly family group and we are studying “Dream to Destiny”. A study based from Joseph in Genesis. Here Joseph goes through 10 test that God used to take Joseph from his dreams where his family bowed down to him to his destiny where he was the savior of his people in the days of famine as be became 2nd in command in Egypt.
As we are going through these test in our study, it’s opened my husband and my eyes to see where God is leading us in our life at this point. Also it helps us to realize how these tests God puts us through are learning experience, and it’s how we handle the test that lets God know if we are ready to move forward to the destiny He has for us, or if we are going to let our dreams fade away while sitting and watching those around us get up and push forward with the test God gives them towards their dreams.
So right now I feel God is putting my husband and myself through a bit of a Pride test. My husband and I have been slowly trying to pay down debt. With that said, one of the debts we owe on is our vehicle. My in-laws be God’s graces decided to bless us with a 2nd vehicle that is a bit older and shows off its war wounds…lol. Being that said, after Darren comes home with the vehicle last night and brings the idea of: “Since we owe less on our vehicle then its worth, maybe we should sell it? We would have $300 more per month to pay down on debt, and we could use some of the funds of the sale to clean up the older vehicle a bit.” Through my mind I have two thoughts going on (First thought) “That’s true” (my #’s side goes to our spreadsheet and calculates how that could help us) while my (Second thought) “This is a nightmare” (I am thinking I’ll have to park where no one can see me. I’ll have everyone thinking something wrong happened since we downsized our vehicle by 10 years…)
I know this wasn’t what my in-laws where thinking when they decided to gift us this vehicle. My in-laws thought we might enjoy having 2 vehicles that could hold all our family instead of just one. They didn’t think we would be going this direction.
My hard part is that I have been asking God in my prayers to bless us. So do I take this as a blessing in the step of we will have $6000 of debt wiped off and $300 per month to pay down for the remainder of our bills? Or do I take a chance and say. Yeah God was blessing us with a second car that can be my husband’s secondary vehicle when its raining so he doesn’t have to ride a motorcycle in the rain?
If God is testing us in the pride department, how do I handle this? How do I rip off the prideful band aid? I have been wounded from what other’s thought of my in my childhood. I don’t want these wounds to reappear. I want to be healed, I want to be accepted, and loved by my peers. I don’t want others to think something is wrong when that is not the case. We are actually trying to be in a better situation and not letting the lifestyle of the world we live in keep weighing us down with being part of the debt cycle. We want to be a family who make a difference and knows that God blesses those who use his blessings wisely.