Aimee Here –
At times I struggle with the feeling of little worth in my life. I find myself question the motives that God has for me.
In these times I question if I am to be a leader of many? Or to be the helper that (figuratively) opens the door for the leader to step through?
I know God wants me to step up to the plate, and the only thing holding me back is me! I sadly I know I have allowed negativity to creep in while watching others around me rise above. And have found my mind bring quite the pity party wondering when it’s my turn. (Instantly in that thought I feel weak and selfish, knowing that was not a fruit of the spirit.) So prayer in that moment is my warrior to bring me back to God and reminds me that my selfishness only sets me up for failure of my own doing.
We must look at ourselves internally and always think if our mind is on things of God or on things of self.

Things of self is of the flesh, and things of God are of the Spirit!

Galatians 5:22-23 ESV
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. “

Galatians 5:24 ESV
“And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. “

So with the Am I to be a Paul of this world, or maybe a Timothy? Do find myself in a place where God can use me to be an up lifter and to help other hear their calling so we all can be difference makers’ together. Or do I use the little I feel God has called me to as enough and move forward in feeling less than?

Either way we need to know that God always has a Greatness for each of us! And here is why:
Was Paul (the mentor) more loved by God then Timothy (the student)? NO, we all have a time and a place of being the student and the mentor. We cannot grow unless we ask for help from those who have gone before us. We must know there are things to be learned before we can be a leader to others.
Is my time to be used for God only a small part in this world? NO, what we do is like a butterfly effect! We may not know the depth of what we do, but God does and we should always be ready to help others for the Glory of God!
How can we grow if we can only expect God’s blessings to shine on us? God will use our hard times to grow us and make us stronger!
We need to be grateful that God is working in our life, and using us at all. We cannot be all that he has made us until we let go of the negativity that weighs us down. How do we do this? We praise and are grateful for the little things like breath, and to remember God will never give us more then we can handle!

Proverbs 17:22 ESV
“A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones. “

God will not give us a yearning deep within so we just give up and squander it. So let us not make a pity party when it’s not our turn up on the stage. There is a time and place for it all! We are told to be life givers to each other, sharing not only our blessings and joys but also with everyone.

Proverbs 27:17 ESV
“Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another. “

2 Corinthians 13:11-14 NIV
“Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you. Greet one another with a holy kiss. All God’s people here send their greetings. May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.